If it’s not final or guaranteed, then I have no “real” feelings towards most things. I’ve learned this about myself through the years.

Someone could be in the hospital or on their deathbed with everyone around them already grieving, but I refuse to grieve before they die. I still hold on to hope and faith and if I’m grieving, then all hope and faith are gone so it doesn’t make sense for me.

I could be offered a job with an 8 figure salary. Everyone else could be happy for me, but I won’t be until all paperwork is filled out, background checks are performed and I show up for my first day. 

I could build the house of my dreams, but I won’t be excited until I close, get the keys and the furniture is all moved in.

 Maybe it’s a bad thing, but I just think that anything could happen at any time, good or bad, so I’d rather save the emotions for when they’re needed.